it all comes down to ourselves

it all comes down to ourselves

Just thinking....
is it true that ppl in this world do things eventually for themselves...not for their family or frens or less fortunate ones or whoever...
okie...we eat to make ouselves full, we exercise to make ourselves healthy, we study in school for our own future blablabla...then there are those touching stories about unconditional love and bravery and blablabla whereby ppl sacrifice for the ppl they love or whoever....lets see it this way, when we help ppl, we ourselves feel happy right.....so....when a family member donate his/her organ to a sick family member, he/she is noble, he/she risk life, and the sick family member is cured, all are happy,the donor is happy too, so if the donor dun donate, the sick one will remain sick n the donor wont be happy right...so the donor give his/her organ n she will stop feeling sad if the sick one is cured....so....the ultimate result is...the donor being happy coz in the end..things turns out for the best......
wotever......

wtf

wtf.....

even blogging is controlled....wtf....
wot ......u mean..they type the matching words in search engine or yahoo or google jus to catch people who are just being honest online.....wtf....

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i like making skin..so fun..can spend hours n hours...but what i can do is quite limited...cos i dun have adobe photoshop....so yes!!!! i am gonna buy the pirated one back in Indo at Mangga Dua....yay yay yay....Rp 20000....how much cheaper can it get....cant get free one cos all my frens, haiz...useless....also cos my html knowledge is limited...darn....must borrow the book to learn more....should have done it during the 1/2 yr break...now...where got time.....

so seems like im back to bloggging mode for now again....

busy

busy

havent been blogging for more than one month...because everything is mundane now......

busy, busy, busy......i am so busy since i enter uni.....this week i have 3 lab reports, extra long one for chem, 2 project datelines, 1 2500 words essay....walau....
but still, i cant resist doing new skin...n dun ask me why i make one that look like this, so plain...but i'm bored of the old skin, so new one will always be better....

i like making skin..so fun..can spend hours n hours...but what i can do is quite limited...cos i dun have adobe photoshop....so yes!!!! i am gonna buy the pirated one back in Indo at Mangga Dua....yay yay yay....Rp 20000....how much cheaper can it get....cant get free one cos all my frens, haiz...useless....also cos my html knowledge is limited...darn....must borrow the book to learn more....should have done it during the 1/2 yr break...now...where got time.....so seems like im back to bloggging mode for now again....

Cant wait for the sem to finish n hope it will end well....no need to be well, just fine & ok will do....not asking for too much, i know my own limit...even 'ok' may be a problem...

so dev's decided to go aussie...i think it's pretty much confirmed, i must admit i am jealous...because....

1. the whole experience sound sooooooo cool
2. she is 3 years younger but going to graduate only 1 year later than me
3. she will get to see tall lanky lads with nice blue/green eyes and six packs, hot bods and spanky ass

it got me thinking maybe i should have decided to fly there 2 years ago, but then again....

1. my folks are here!!!here!!! u know how good it is to go back home and live with them...hostel n frens are good fun but nothing beats home
2. i dun wanna waste my parents' $$$, the fees in aussie for one year can last me for 4 yrs here....wtf...

wtf, 2 benefits vs 3!!!!!!! aaargh..regret???????? nope...no 'regret' in my dictionary......'life's good now, life's good.....', pshyco-ing myself....

just really hope she will want to return after 4 years, she said she will, she better keep her promise

really hope everything goes well.....for everybody...

just thinking...can imagine?

just thinking.....can imagine?

hmm....looks like my life plan's now heading back towards my sucky hometown...
after living for more than 10 years here, i wonder how it feels like going back there, and not just going back there but LIVING there.....damn!!!

broadband? no broadband, broadband is ex and not as good....how....no internet....how am i gonna live.....no yahoo, no launching, no msn, no online game, no music downloading, no 'extra free show', how, how......

no sbs buses and mrt....only bajaj, so expensive, only mikrolet, ojek, bus no.8 or wotever, how, how, i dun even know how to take, why, cos they dun even have numbers on their top front like my bus 33, no bus directory...

no gv, no engwah, no cathay....hoooooooow.........only got cinema21, dun know if i will go out alive if i go there to catch some show....

no tcs, no cna...hoowwww......not that tcs is great...but tvri, rcti, sctv, sucks even more.....

no power 98 and perfect 10.....oh, but i can always listen from net...but, wait, oh shit....even internet connection there sucks.......arrrrrrrrrrrgh

no kopitiam, no da pai dang, chinatown hawker.........

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